not so happy

I have a few week no write blog le,cos many thing happen,not in the mood write it....now still ok....this year,many thing happen,happy o sad,i have walk it through....but sometime,i have some problem that i cant walk through it....like my grandmother....she 90 years old le,i know,she old le,maybe one day will leave me,but when i small,i alrd no grandpa,i love my grandpa,even he only wiv me 5 years then die of cancer....my grandpa always in my mind....grandma also very love me,i also love her,i don wanna she left me....but i know it cant be....she starting many suffering pain....i see her like that,i feel so pain in my heart,maybe sometime she is annoying,but old ppl is like child....i understand,n i love my grandma,so i wont leave her even she is annoying....all my cousin also no like wiv my grandma,they say so annoying,but i can handle it,maybe i more mature than them o i love my grandma more than they do.....my grandma tell me,in her heart,she only hav 2 grandaughter,1 is me,another 1 is my small cousin that only 4years old....only we both no left her,always together n love her....i really hope i can fast finish my study n work,then bring my family especially grandma to somewhere to have a sweet memory....i hope my grandma get better soon,n also,my dad n mom....stop fight....hope they know y they marry n love each other from the start....maybe the world is not long....so i hope they all can appreciate wat they have now....